on sadness…

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“the tormented heart doesn’t just find happiness, it becomes happiness”.   ¬umeed merchant. “the ground beneath her feet” by salman rushdie
my feet draws me to the sound of rock. and you, i am not so sure. but there must have been a constant sadness that made us roam around the streets of angkor. we were trying to gather all that must make one long for something that would transform tormented hearts into a peaceful lullaby.

there are some sadness that only strangers can understand. i am probably trying to escape a past that would not let go of me. and you, i am not so sure. but it must be a kind of burning to make us not want to read each other’s stories to create something new that would transcend the complications of asking the ultimate question of why.

why?

have i become so sad to rest my challenges on a bench, the faint streetlight illuminating the place beside the river, your quarter-bottle of mekong whiskey rocking us? so sad to let myself feel the grass on my bare back, your arms cushioning my head as your words drown in mine? are we both so sad to meander noiselessly into the night, trying to find solace inside each other’s skin?

maybe this longing of being anything else but empty can be quenched tonight.
and so we tried…
and so we did…
or did we?

this is the sadness that only strangers can understand. we succumb to it, hoping to make sense of fleeting things such as happiness.

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  • http://thepinaysolobackpacker.com thepinaysolobackpacker

    Despite it’s beauty, I felt some sadness in Angkor.I wept while sitting in the river with the locals,and even the mere sight of seeing a naive child wandering aimlessly in one of the temples and the poor kids I chanced up somewhere in the woods while I was chasin’ the sunset. (pasensya na emo tlga ako madalas,my upcoming post for Angkor Wat will attest to that. hihi :D)
    Angkor is sublime, and your words define them perfectly! Makes me wish I can write the way you do Monette! :)

    Happy travels!
    Gael

  • flip'n travels

    Aw gael, thanks! i’m sure your posts about angkor will be as emotional the footsteps of cambodian kids kiss the pavements of the temples. can’t wait to see them. happy travels too!

    monette 😀

  • http://marilil.wordpress.com/ lifeisacelebration

    Love your blog. Spoken (or written) from the heart. This is the kind of melancholy that drives us emo and sentimental, driving us to wax poetic. So much heart in this blog. Type!

  • http://fliptravels.com/ flip’n travels

    thank you lili… this blog is our faucet of our restrained emotions

  • http://www.anggeturns26.com/ Angge

    I really love your writings, Monette. Honest and heartfelt. Galing! :)

  • http://fliptravels.com/ flip’n travels

    thanks angge! i’m super touched! :)